So, lately I have been thinking about a certain question that still makes no sense in my own mind, and I wanted to blog a little about it to help cope with the question. My question is: if God loves us so much then why does He put people or things in our life that hurt us?
Now there are many ways to respond to this question and also to prove it wrong. Some may say that it is to make us stronger, it is a trial that we have to overcome in order to become stronger for God. But, what happens once you have overcome this obstacle? Why does it still hurt afterwords? Shouldn't there be at least a brief period of reprieve? Some kind of temporary reward for the victory? Or what if I never win? What if I stay on the side of the road of life, never advancing forward?
Another way to respond to the question is by saying that everything happens for a reason. I am very much a believer in this statement, but when this thing is taking over your life, where is the relief? Where is God coming to the rescue at the exact time when you think you cannot hold on a second longer? If He doesn't come at this point when I feel hopeless, does it mean that the problem only gets worse, going deeper and deeper until you are drowning in a sea of despair?
Being spiritually stagnate is not a fun time in life. It's almost inevitable especially at the college level because it is the responsibility of the student to take ownership of their own faith. It is no longer being forced to go to church on Sunday morning or CCD class, it all of a sudden becomes real and a seeming battle field in which is a fight from the second you wake up every morning to the moment you fall asleep, escaping the world's cruel purposes. It's scary...especially when you feel like you're losing God. It's even more scary when you feel like you are losing it because of something God made and put in your life for a reason. But why would God do that? Why would He create someone or something that would separate Him from me? Is it because "absence makes the heart grow fonder?" But what about "out of sight out of mind?" What if I never find my way back?
Moral: I don't have a moral this week, this was a way to write down my own thoughts and try to understand myself.
Great topic! I too thought about these things all the time. I like to believe it is because it does make us stronger, and we can pass down to others what we have learned in life, whether it was right or wrong. I was in bad place 2 years ago, BUT if it had no happened, I would have not come to this GREAT place I am now in life. I try to believe everything happens for a reason. And you will find as you get older, that life experiences will help you understand things more and more. Great blog Kendel!
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